Things are getting harder these days. I'm not complaining, of course. It's what I have to deal with right now, focusing on my studies. Not only me, I think all of us feels the same way now. Struggling to perform our best, to achieve what we want, flying high. I never thought that I could ever make it to this stage, being here with bunch of brilliant students surrounding me.
In short, my life has changed a lot.
I used to be a carefree person who did not worry about my marks so much as I did now, I didn't really care about the subjects I'm weak at, I neglected it instead. I only study when I feel I wanted to and I choose only a certain subjects to study depending on my mood. I used to fail my exam papers and felt really sad but then, I soon helped myself and move on to make things better. Most of all, my studies are inconsistent. And the worst part of it, I didn't care much! LIfe's pretty good and wonderful.
And as of now, I thought I'm improving myself, but yet the outcomes is not as good as I expected it to be. I must admit that recently, I've been studying a bit hard (as compared to before), I went to college in the morning since I can't study at home ( blame the bed, it's so attractive..can't resist it ). I spent more time studying subjects that I'm weak at hoping that I can improve it. Honestly, I'm a bit frustrated with myself. Not exactly myself, I don't really know who should I blame. Is it myself who's not working hard enough? Maybe it's not enough I guess. Sometimes I feel really tired and exhausted. It seems as if I didn't put any efforts on improving myself. And I do realised that no one can help me except myself. It's even more stressful when I keep comparing myself to other people and how I wish I could be as brilliant as them. I wish I could absorb all the knowledge faster. People keep saying that we shouldn't compare ourselves to others as our abilities are different.
I always keep saying to myself not to give up and keep on trying. I know that if we never give up and always put efforts, we'll succeed. I'll always remember my mum's advice, she said that the most important thing is effort, and of course, pray so God will help us.
Sorry Mr Derick, my blog this time sounds depressing and not so academic. But I guess I just need to let out my feelings. Besides, I don't have any more any ideas what to write this week.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Saturday, April 11, 2009
cookies and poverty
One of the thing that I love the most is choc chip cookies. When I said I love it, I really mean it. I can go to the extend that I can finish up the whole box of cookies in just about an hour..all by myself. Cookies makes me hyper due to the sugar rush obviously. and I can be very hyper by just eating those cookies(that's what my parents worried of). Besides chocolate, cookies are my true friend when I'm sad or feeling down. They make me happy =D and fat too!! Choc chip cookies are never enough for me.
Then, one day mum called me and asked me what I had for my dinner. Simply i just told her that I only ate choc chip cookies. Well, guess what happens next? I received almost an hour lecture reminding me that I need to eat carbo and protein..and...the balanced diet..went on and on and not those 'sweet things'. In the end, I was not allowed to eat anymore choc chip cookies and mum said that she's not going to supply me anymore choc chip cookies. She did what she said..when she came to my student house last weekend, she bought me this cheese crackers instead of choc chip cookies. To be honest, I felt like crying when I noticed there was no choc chip cookies in the bag. "It's my favourite, mum. I can't live without it!!"
To begin with, last Wednesday, I read this one magazine in library and came across one article about poverty in Afghanistan. The article mainly is about how poverty affects the lifestyle of people there. Also, pictures are included in the article to show how the real situation of povert. But what captured my attention was a picture which showed a little boy eating cookies which he picked up from the garbage disposal. Then I realized how lucky I am to live in such a comfortable environment, yet I still feel that I never had enough cookies..how ungrateful is that? I try to imagine myself living in such condition where I hardly eat a meal in a day and only had meal from trash!! Their life's miserable.
Now I realised that I must be grateful of what I have now. I musn't complaint about not having enough cookies and I should not be choosy and picky about food or any other necessities because there's other people out there trying hard to survive in their life. While we're eating variety of delicious food here, the kids there are starving to death. This really saddens me because I can do nothing to help them. All I can is only sympathize but I know that's nothing as compared to what they are going through. I wish I could help. Maybe I can pray to God to help them, to make their life better.
Then, one day mum called me and asked me what I had for my dinner. Simply i just told her that I only ate choc chip cookies. Well, guess what happens next? I received almost an hour lecture reminding me that I need to eat carbo and protein..and...the balanced diet..went on and on and not those 'sweet things'. In the end, I was not allowed to eat anymore choc chip cookies and mum said that she's not going to supply me anymore choc chip cookies. She did what she said..when she came to my student house last weekend, she bought me this cheese crackers instead of choc chip cookies. To be honest, I felt like crying when I noticed there was no choc chip cookies in the bag. "It's my favourite, mum. I can't live without it!!"
To begin with, last Wednesday, I read this one magazine in library and came across one article about poverty in Afghanistan. The article mainly is about how poverty affects the lifestyle of people there. Also, pictures are included in the article to show how the real situation of povert. But what captured my attention was a picture which showed a little boy eating cookies which he picked up from the garbage disposal. Then I realized how lucky I am to live in such a comfortable environment, yet I still feel that I never had enough cookies..how ungrateful is that? I try to imagine myself living in such condition where I hardly eat a meal in a day and only had meal from trash!! Their life's miserable.
Now I realised that I must be grateful of what I have now. I musn't complaint about not having enough cookies and I should not be choosy and picky about food or any other necessities because there's other people out there trying hard to survive in their life. While we're eating variety of delicious food here, the kids there are starving to death. This really saddens me because I can do nothing to help them. All I can is only sympathize but I know that's nothing as compared to what they are going through. I wish I could help. Maybe I can pray to God to help them, to make their life better.
Friday, April 3, 2009
movie time
It's talent time!!
I'm pretty sure most of us have heard about this movie.
Directed by Yasmin Ahmad, it is simply a story of love. But it's not just a plain love between two lovers like those romeo and juliet. Yasmin Ahmad had succeeded in exploring and potray the meaning of love in a deeper and wider prespective.
What I like the most about this movie is the reality element it has. Usually if we watch any TV drama, mostly it potrays only the good side of our life like for example rich families with perfect life, big houses and big cars and smart children..etc. It's like everything is almost perfect. Of course some of this are true but it does not reflect exactly our real life situation.
However in this movie, I can see clearly that most of the scenes can also be seen in our everyday life. Life in school, relationships and the bond between family members, and the catfight between sisters as well. I remembered how me and my sisters would fight like Melur and her sisters just because we borrowed each other make-up stuff without permission and how we throw pillows to each other and saying bad words when we fight. And how they behave when their grandmother was at their place, made me think of my siblings as well. Everytime my grandmother come over to our house we would all be warned by Mum to behave well so as to not make grandma unhappy.
Also, this movie has proved how blind love can be. Certainly we always heard of the statement when people keep saying that love is blind and whatsoever. Well, in this movie i think it's so true. Religion, races and ethnicity are not obstacles for people to fall in love. Love is so blind that we can fall in love with anyone despite our different background. But of course in the end our family will object the idea.
Besides that, the story of Hafiz and his mum really touched me and believe it or not, I cried( of course since i'm the drama queen, who always gets emo..hahah ) Well, in this story I think Hafiz represent the type of good boy whose life is not that good but he is grateful enough to have his mother. And he'll do anything to make his mum happy and always keeps his promises.
Overall, this movie is great. It's not just the story that makes it interesting, I think every single aspect of this movie are done in a very artistic way. It is not a typical movie where there's conflicts and in the end they live happily ever after. 'Talent Time' provoked the viewer's thoughts and perspectives on issues that the director try to raise in the movie.
=D
I'm pretty sure most of us have heard about this movie.
Directed by Yasmin Ahmad, it is simply a story of love. But it's not just a plain love between two lovers like those romeo and juliet. Yasmin Ahmad had succeeded in exploring and potray the meaning of love in a deeper and wider prespective.
What I like the most about this movie is the reality element it has. Usually if we watch any TV drama, mostly it potrays only the good side of our life like for example rich families with perfect life, big houses and big cars and smart children..etc. It's like everything is almost perfect. Of course some of this are true but it does not reflect exactly our real life situation.
However in this movie, I can see clearly that most of the scenes can also be seen in our everyday life. Life in school, relationships and the bond between family members, and the catfight between sisters as well. I remembered how me and my sisters would fight like Melur and her sisters just because we borrowed each other make-up stuff without permission and how we throw pillows to each other and saying bad words when we fight. And how they behave when their grandmother was at their place, made me think of my siblings as well. Everytime my grandmother come over to our house we would all be warned by Mum to behave well so as to not make grandma unhappy.
Also, this movie has proved how blind love can be. Certainly we always heard of the statement when people keep saying that love is blind and whatsoever. Well, in this movie i think it's so true. Religion, races and ethnicity are not obstacles for people to fall in love. Love is so blind that we can fall in love with anyone despite our different background. But of course in the end our family will object the idea.
Besides that, the story of Hafiz and his mum really touched me and believe it or not, I cried( of course since i'm the drama queen, who always gets emo..hahah ) Well, in this story I think Hafiz represent the type of good boy whose life is not that good but he is grateful enough to have his mother. And he'll do anything to make his mum happy and always keeps his promises.
Overall, this movie is great. It's not just the story that makes it interesting, I think every single aspect of this movie are done in a very artistic way. It is not a typical movie where there's conflicts and in the end they live happily ever after. 'Talent Time' provoked the viewer's thoughts and perspectives on issues that the director try to raise in the movie.
=D
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